60 x Gratitude

kedar-3aTo celebrate my 60th birthday I would like to offer 60 personal gratitude-prayers:

1. Gratitude for being on this lovely Earth
2. Gratitude for having the opportunity to realize God
3. Gratitude for 60 years of life in this incarnation
4. Gratitude for meeting my master 30 years ago
5. Gratitude for getting a second life after my accident in Sabah
6. Gratitude to have a healthy body
7. Gratitude for living in beautiful Switzerland
8. Gratitude for all the beautiful nature on this planet
9. Gratitude for having a lovely and soulful wife
10. Gratitude for having all I need for my living
11. Gratitude for working in a divine enterprise
12. Gratitude for having a meditation Centre in our town
13. Gratitude for our powerful sun that gives us energy every day
14. Gratitude for having produced 108 DVD’s on the live of my master
15. Gratitude for my daily meditations
16. Gratitude for the fruits of our garden
17. Gratitude for the air we can breath every day
18. Gratitude for having met my master numerous times personally
19. Gratitude for all that I can manifest daily
20. Gratitude for all the countries I could travel
21. Gratitude for our nice apartment
22. Gratitude for not having material problems
23. Gratitude for having met so many beautiful people
24. Gratitude for Mother Earth
25. Gratitude for Father Heaven
26. Gratitude for God who is guiding us all
27. Gratitude for all the colors that surround us
28. Gratitude for peace
29. Gratitude for being happy
30. Gratitude for our universe in which we live

31. Gratitude for all the flowers we can see daily
32. Gratitude for the beauty of all the trees
33. Gratitude for all the kind animals
34. Gratitude for all the masters that descended on Earth
35. Gratitude for getting a new life every day
36. Gratitude for the joy I can experience
37. Gratitude for all the people I could interview
38. Gratitude for the nature that I could film and photograph
39. Gratitude for the mineral kingdom
40. Gratitude for the plants that I have in my home
41. Gratitude for my spiritual life
42. Gratitude for my mother and father
43. Gratitude for the many books my master wrote
44. Gratitude for all the songs my master composed
45. Gratitude for all artworks that my master created
46. Gratitude for all creativity I experience daily
47. Gratitude for the fragrances of this world
48. Gratitude for the spiritual songs I learned by heart
49. Gratitude for the technique that allows me to preserve my creations
50. Gratitude for all moments I could capture in my life
51. Gratitude for the new energies that will be revealed soon
52. Gratitude for the mountains and their beauty
53. Gratitude for the springs that offer us fresh water
54. Gratitude for the birds that are singing
55. Gratitude for the vastness of the sea
56. Gratitude for all experiences I had in my life
57. Gratitude of experiencing the new age of Aquarius
58. Gratitude for the aspiration I have
59. Gratitude for learning more every day
60. Gratitude for the awareness of being one with God

“My own Gratitude-Heart is all that matters”  – Sri Chinmoy

Photograph by Mandu Trummer

Kedar’s miracle story

A collective journey with a group of disciples always represented a highlight for me, specially during our annual Christmas trips that brought us to the farthest corners of the world. In January 2002 we visited Sabah, a little-known part of Malaysia, and while we were there we went on an old steam train. At the station, outside of Kota Kinabalu, I started to film the wood-burning engine. The workers of the North Borneo Railway were about to burn the wood in the same way that I did in my bakery, Ecstasy-Sky, for many years. As usual, taking videos for me is not a duty but a passion and, as the train started to move, my immediate goal was to cover the journey with Sri Chinmoy and the feeling of experiencing the passing landscapes.

I quickly ate my lunch and began filming at my table. Then I moved to one of the doorways, which had been opened en route, and started to capture the rushing scenes of smiling children and hard metal bridge pillars. After a short break at the final station, Putatan, the same train reversed direction. Once again I took the opportunity to take video from the doorsteps. I especially wanted to film a Buddhist temple which I had seen briefly on the outward-bound trip. I stood on the lowest outside step of the doorway and was ready to shoot when something seemed to pull me out of the train. Thanks to my Guru, I landed on my right side and survived the fall. It could have been much worse. I thought I was dreaming and said to myself that now it should be over, I have to wake up. But it was not a dream. My right arm was hurting, my breathing was short and I could hardly tell the villagers who had gathered around me what had happened. Luckily, two of my disciple friends, Sanjay and Prabuddha, rushed out of the train after it stopped (which was difficult by itself, because a steam train needs hundreds of metres to come to a complete standstill) and they were with me several minutes later.

I was sitting on a little wooden bridge that connects the houses with the path crossing the railway and I was holding my arm. My camera was lying on the grass. I chanted “Supreme” as fast as I could, and afterwards in the car Sanjay encouraged me to even increase the speed. I did not want to die, and my friends gave me hope my Guru would help me. One of my ribs had punctured my right lung when I hit the ground, and the immediate goal was the nearby local hospital. When we arrived at the small government-owned hospital, nobody seemed to see the need to treat me and, after a short time, our group doctor, Meghabhuti, decided to move me to a better private hospital. Here a very friendly surgeon with a Chinese background treated me and performed the first operation to inflate my lung back to normal with the help of a machine. This was the crucial moment for my survival, and only the constant powerful help of my Guru made it possible for my breathing to immediately return to normal. After less than three days, the lung tube was removed. Also, my whole right arm was crushed during the fall, and this was taken care of the morning after the accident with the insertion of an adjusting metal plate.

My wife told me later that when I came back from the operating theatre the first evening, I was folding my hands and singing Guru’s gratitude song. Gratitude is still the only word to describe my feelings. I like to live and I am happy that I can continue my life and am able to manifest my Guru’s light. Needless to say, my already close relationship with Sri Chinmoy grew into a new dimension. I would also like to thank all my disciple friends from all over the world who prayed for me and welcomed me when I returned to the Nexus Resort Hotel after I was released from the hospital. Sri Chinmoy had already left the hotel the day before, but he recompensed me a million times when he blessed me at his Aspiration-Ground during the April Celebrations in Queens, New York two months after the accident. – Kedar Misani

The meaning of a spiritual name

During his lifetime Sri Chinmoy has given a spiritual name to many of his disciples. About the meaning of spiritual names he wrote: “When I give a spiritual name to a disciple of mine, it is because I see the potentialities and inner capacities of the disciple. I see which qualities this person is likely to bring forward in this incarnation. Each person has many divine qualities, but some of these qualities are more likely or more ready than others to be manifested in this incarnation. So I give different names depending on the soul’s capacity, willingness and eagerness to manifest the divine through some particular divine qualities.”

For me it was a very special occasion, when I got my name, in fact my wife (her name is Nirmala) and me got our names at the same moment which is even more delightful. We were in one of our early meditation centers in Queens, New York – some 25 years ago – and suddenly we got called to Sri Chinmoy’s private room where he first meditated on each of us and then on both of us before blessing us with our names. My name Kedar means: “Meadow. The most soulful and beautiful meadow where the Lord Supreme is found in all His Love, Compassion and Satisfaction.” When you get a spiritual name it is first a very new and unusual feeling. You are born with a name your parents gave you and suddenly the master gives you a soul’s name. With the time I not only accepted it fully but also manifested it in the outer world by changing all my official documents. It took me quite some time to realize what stands behind this name because it is not so easy to understand as for example a spiritual quality. But now I can see that many of my life’s activities show a diversity of many little items, like flowers on a meadow – and all the videos produced on the life of my master resemble colourful flowers that I am offering to the world. – Kedar Misani